Bagiku.. (To:2313)

Bagiku kau adalah sebuah nada yang kukunci dan kujaga di dalam sebuah kotak musik..
Saat kupikir aku mulai melupakanmu, aku melupakan tempat aku menyimpan kuncinya..
Namun saat kau kembali muncul bagaikan angin kurasa kunci itu muncul kembali tanpa perlu kucari..
Apa maksud semua ini?

Sincerely,
---JW---

Nothing Last Forever..

Nothing will last forever..

Believe me, nothing last forever in this world.
Nothing, even this world itself..

Love? It may be the most beautiful thing in this world.
But it's also the cruelest thing in this world when it turns dark.
It's too cruel to be known. Ўūþ, it'll not last forever.

Family? It may be the closest bond that ever been made. But when the time has come it'll be nothing. It's too cruel to be left behind by the one who we love..

Best Friends? Yea, I want to believe this will last forever. But same with families, it's just too cruel when you see your friends or best friends left us behind. Left us behind in this world of lies and shadows..

Memory is the only things will be living inside of our beloved people that we leave or left in this world. But it's also will gone together with the world itself.

Yea, the world is just a test.
It's important for the immortal live.
But, don't too happy with all the things you have here.
Now.
You'll cry in the finish line.

This world is not everlasting.
This world is just a time-bomb.
This world is also waiting together with us.
Time is too fast.
We're too greedy.
We're all suffering, for many kind of things.

The everlasting happiness will come if you done a good job in this sucks world.
I know this world is sucks, but there are also many happiness here.

But beware, those happiness could be sweeter than honey at the first. But in the end it'll turns bitter.
Some of it also make you addictive to it, just like drugs.

Yea, just be careful and pray.
This world is too messy.
This world is too failed.
Yes, the world is too dirty and bad.
But, just pray.
The everlasting happiness is waiting for you..

This world is too cruel to be known.
It's too tricky to be live in.
I may hate this world, but it's myself who choose the path of my life.
You're also the one who will choose your path.
Walk on the shiny line, or ruined inside the hopeless dreams..
Yea, just choose..
Yea, maybe this world is cruel. But it's our world..

Yea, maybe this world is not that bad.

Best Regards,
---JW---
11.45 WIB, West Jakarta, Indonesia..

High School...?

Hhmmm...
High school...
I'm a ninth grader now, and high school is coming to me...
I will be a high school student next year (I hope I'll pass the exams~)...
I.... want to back to Penabur so I can meet my old friends (from the primary school)..
But, I have to choose between my old friends and my friends now~
If I stay in IPEKA, I won't be meeting my old friends..
But if I go to Penabur, I will say good-bye to my friends in IPEKA. Yea, even some of them will be moving to Penabur to, SMAK 1 and SMAK 4.
I have made my decision. I'll stay in IPEKA Puri, not because of 2313, but because many things that I have been thinking about. A lot of it....
Actually I don't think I'm ready to be a high schooler, but what should I do when the time have come?
I must be ready...
I must prepare myself from now on...

Sincerely,
---JW---

Changing...? Yea~

I am an emotional girl. I admit that myself, yea thanks to my dear eonnie, Elizabeth Kristina that let me know about it...
I want to change, it's not that good to be hate.
Ўūþ.
And the ways that I'm going to do to change are :
1. Stop raising my voice
2. I better use the funny words
3. Pray
​​ƗƗɑƗƗɑ​​ƗƗɑƗƗɑ​​ƗƗɑƗƗɑ.. Hope these will work..
Sincerely,
---JW---

I'm swallowing my own sadness again and again...

I'm swallowing my own sadness again and again...
I'm swallowing my own tears again and again...
I'm swallowing my own pains again and again..
My best friends, you all have the right to make me cry like a baby...
Yes, you all have the right more than the boys that I love...
You're more than all of those things...
More than those things about love..

2313..?

Dear : CODENAME 2313...
Humm... Hhhh...
I want that to be "The last sigh" that I've ever made because of you, 2313...
I think I'm starting to forget about you little by little...
Your face, your voice (at last I can forget about it)...
Yes step by step, one by one...
Actually I really want to forget about you from a long long ago..
But I don't know how now it seems like it just something to forget easily...
But actually I've tried very hard like a crazy, even I never cried because of you before..
Now, everytime I see you I feel nothing.
I feel like you only like everybody else.. You're just like my other usual friends..
I suppose to be happy right? Yea, I suppose to be happy because I'm able to forget you...
But the weird thing here is : I'm able to forget you, I don't have any feelings toward you anymore, but I don't want to forget and get rid from you...-_-
Waaaaaaa!!!!۳(¬‿¬)۳
I think I'm going crazy.. Slight by a slight.. -_-
I never even can understand and know my own feelings. Stupid is the right word for me.. I think..

Diluarnya...

Ini cuma satu orang...
Mungkin gw emang terlalu sensitif bagi lu...
Yah, memang gw sensitif sih...
Diluarnya sih akhirnya masalahnya udah selesai..
Gw kira udah bener-bener ga bakal kayak 'gitu' lagi,
tapi ternyata yang gue dapet malah yang lebih pahit dari yang itu...
Dari senang, jadi hambar, suram, dan gw kira bakal hangat lagi...
Ternyata yang gw dapet malah yang lebih sakit...
Lu mungkin sadar mungkin ga..
Mungkin sengaja mungkin ga..
Mungkin lu ga seneng gw umbar semua kesedihan gw seakan gw nuduh lu...
Tapi memang yang ngerti, yang rasain, yang nangis cuma gw...
Care lu yang tadinya masih ada menguap semua..
Senyum lu yang tadinya masih ada sekarang ilang semua..
Yah, lu mah bahagia dan ga merasa apapun..
Lu itu emang kayak gitu..
Tapi gw mesti gimana supaya lu bisa kayak dulu lagi? Jadi gw harus sendirian lagi?

Sincerely, your friend
---JW---

Esai Pendekku.. Trembles of Friendship (2)

Teman, ini yang kulihat...
Teman, ini yang kurasakan..
Teman, ini yang kulakukan..
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Yah, mungkin diantara kalian berdua aku hanya penghalang semu...
Yah, kalian bersua dan sekarang aku sendiri yang ditinggalkan di belakang panggung..
Hahhh...
Aku terlupakan.. Aku terhilang..
Aku tidak mau menghancurkan harmoni yang terjalin diantara kalian..
Sudah terajut terlalu rapat..
Jadi aku memandang langit-langit ruangan..
Jadi aku sibuk dengan pena dan kertasku..
Jadi aku mengetuk meja untuk menghilangkan sepi..
Yah, aku berteman dengan bunyi itu..
Biarkan kalian berceloteh dan aku mengetuk..
Biarkan kalian tersenyum dan aku menunduk..
Biarkan kalian tertawa dan aku memalingkan tatapanku..
Biarkan kalian bahagia dan aku menutup telingaku rapat-rapat..
Biarkan kalian terang dan aku berkubang dalam suram..
​​ƗƗɑƗƗɑ​​ƗƗɑƗƗɑ​​ƗƗɑƗƗɑ.. Tawaku hambar dalam sunyi..
Aku ditinggal...
Tidak,
Aku tertinggal..
Aku ingin kembali. Aku ingin bersama. Tapi apakah kalian mengizinkan?
Tawa yang kau arahkan kepadaku tak seperti kau rela..
Aku pun masih bertanya-tanya...
Aku ingin kembali, tapi aku tak berani...
Aku ingin kembali, tapi aku tak mengerti...
Aku ingin kembali, tapi aku tak mengetahui, apakah kalian menerimaku sekarang ini?
Aku masih bertanya-tanya di dalam hatiku sendiri...

Sincerely, your friend..
---JW---

The Trembles of Friendship..

Galau itu bukan cuma gara-gara ♥..
Tapi di pertemanan itu bukan hal yang ga mungkin..
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9/11/11 13.44 WIB

Tatapan dingin itu padaku...
Nada datar itu padaku...
Tatapan hangat itu padanya...
Nada manis itu padanya...
Apa salahku?
Benakku bertanya-tanya..

Ya, lupakan aku..
Ya, lupakan aku..
Ya, lupakan aku..
Ya, lupakan aku..
Ya, lupakan aku..

Tapi kumohon jangan selamanya...

Sincerely,
Your friend..
---JW---

JYJ - In Heaven (Hangul/Romaji Lyrics/English Translation)

This is the only and the first song that made me cried...
I never ever cried because of a song (except 'You are So Beautiful' when I listened to it while I also watched the drama) before, but this song made me cried while I was listening to it and read the lyrics and the translation together...
The song is nice, the lyrics are really nice, and the MV is a bit weird, but I think I understand the story...
The last part where Junsu and the woman sit together on the chair is a bit weird for me. I think (from my perspective) they're both in Heaven because the scene that come before that scene is the scene where Junsu save the woman from the accident but they're both fall down.
I don't know what that means, but the more I watch the MV, the more I love Junsu and his voice... MWAHAHAHAHA!!!
So this is the lyrics and translation...

In Heaven

(Narr. Kim Jeongeun) [Lyrics by: Kim Jaejoong | Composed by: Kim Jaejoong |Arranged by: Kim Jaejoong, Bjd, Mds]

Romaji

(Narration)

geuman galke..

gajima..

gottoraol geoya geureonikka
geojitmal, geojitmal
aniya, naega neol imankkeum saranghaneunde
geu sarang, jigeum boyeojul sun obgetni?
saranghae.. ttodasi saranghal sun obgetni

VERSE 1

jigeum waseon malhal suga obseo
naui gijeok geumodeun ge hwansang gatta
majimak ni moseub sok seoseohi gieok sogeman
jamgyeojyeo ganeun gotman gatta

eodingaeseo nal bogo isseulkka

huhui haedo neucheobeoryeo bolsu obseo

chueogui geurimjaui chokchokhan nae nunmul dullo

geu jaril jikyeobogo isseo

geuman mothae jeongmal mothae niga nae yeophe isseulttae mankkeum

mianhande geuge andwae ijen modeun ge ttolryeowa

jogeumdo gidarida kkumsokeul hemeida (hemeida)

gyeolguk ni aneseo nuneul gameulkkabwa

Refrain :

gajima deo gajima nae gyeotte isseojul suneun obtni

geojitmal da geojitmal jeonhyeo dullijiga anha

saranghae neol saranghae hanmadi boyeojul suneun obtni

saranghae neol saranghae tto dasi saranghae jugetni

VERSE 2

beolsseo ireohke do jina wasseo

naui heunjeok chatjabwado jiwo jyeosseo

majimak ni gieokdo nunmurui tteyeop sogeuro

jamgyeojyeo ganeun gotman gatta

iman kkeutnae nareul kkeutnae niga nae yeophe itji andamyeon

mianhande iman galke ije neoui gireul ttara

kkeut obtneun gireul ttara neol chaja hemeida (hemeida)

gyeoguk neoreul itgoseo seulpheoman halkkabwa

Refrain :

gajima deo gajima nae gyeotte isseojul suneun obtni

geojitmal da geojitmal jeonhyeo dullijiga anha

saranghae neol saranghae hanmadi boyeojul suneun obtni

saranghae neol saranghae tto dasi saranghae jugetni

Brigde

gajima gajima isseojul suneun itni

geojitmal geojitmal deulijiga anha

saranghae saranghae boyeojul suneun itni

saranghae saranghae saranghae jugetni

gajima gajima isseojul suneun itni

geojitmal geojitmal deulijiga anha

saranghae saranghae boyeojul suneun itni

jebal dorawajyeo

Refrain

gajima deo gajima nae gyeotte isseojul suneun obtni

geojitmal da geojitmal jeonhyeo dullijiga anha

saranghae neol saranghae hanmadi boyeojul suneun obtni

saranghae neol saranghae tto dasi saranghae jugetni

HANGUL

(Narration)
그만 갈게 / 가지마 / 곧 돌아올 거야 그
러니까… / 거짓말, 거짓말 / 아니야 내가
널 이만큼 사랑하는데… / 그 사랑 지금
보여줄 순 없겠니? / 사랑해… / 또 다시
사랑할 순 없겠니…

VERSE 1

지금 와선 말할 수가 없어 너의 기적 그

모든 게 환상 같아 / 마지막 니 모습 속 서서히 기억

속에만 잠겨져 가는 것만 같아

어딘가에서 날 보고 있을까 후회해도 늦어버려 볼

수 없어 / 추억의 그림자의 촉촉한 내 눈물들로 그

자릴 지켜보고 있어

그 말 못해 정말 못해 니가 내 옆에 있을 때만큼 /

미안한데 그게 안돼 이젠 모든 게 떨려와

조금 더 기다리다 꿈속을 헤 메이다 / 결국 니 안에

서 눈을 감을까 봐

REFRAIN

가지마 더 가지마 내 곁에 있어줄 수는 없니 / 거짓

말 다 거짓말 전혀 들리지가 않아

사랑해 널 사랑해 한마디 보여줄 수는 없니 / 사랑

해 널 사랑해 또 다시 사랑해 주겠니

VERSE 2

벌써 이렇게도 지나 왔어 너의 흔적 찾아봐도 지워

졌어 / 마지막 니 기억도 눈물의 테옆 속으로 잠겨

져 가는 것만 같아

이만 끝내 나를 끝내 니가 내 옆에 있지 않다면 / 미

안한데 이만 갈게 이제 너의 길을 따라 / 끝 없는 길

을 따라.. 널 찾아 헤 메이다~ / 결국 너를 잃고서 슬

퍼만 할까 봐

Refrain

가지마 더 가지마 내 곁에 있어 줄 수는 없니 / 거짓

말 다 거짓말 전혀 들리지가 않아

사랑해 널 사랑해 한마디 보여줄 수는 없니 / 사랑

해 널 사랑해 또다시 사랑해 주겠니

BRIDGE

가지마 가지마 있어줄 수는 있니 / 거짓말 거짓말

들리지가 않아

사랑해 사랑해 보여줄 수는 있니 / 사랑해 사랑해

사랑해 주겠니

가지마 가지마 있어줄 수는 있니 / 거짓말 거짓말

들리지가 않아

사랑해 사랑해 보여줄 수는 있니 / 제발 돌아와줘

Refrain

가지마 더 가지마 내 곁에 있어줄 수는 없니 / 거짓

말 다 거짓말 전혀 들리지가 않아

사랑해 널 사랑해 한마디 보여줄 수는 없니 / 사랑

해 널 사랑해 또 다시 사랑해 주겠니

~English Translation~

(Narr.)

I’m going to leave now
Don’t leave
I’m going to come back so…
Liar, liar
No- don’t you know how much I love you?
Can’t you show that love to me right now?
I love you…
Can’t you love me again?

VERSE 1

As of right now, I can’t say anything

The miracle of you- it all seems like a fantasy

The last image of you seems to be locked only in my memories

I wonder if you are watching me from somewhere

Even if I regret, it’s too late- I can’t see you anymore

The tears of the shadows of my memories are watching over that place

I can’t say those words, I really can’t- as much as you were by my side

I’m sorry but I can’t- everything comes shaking back to me now

By waiting a little more, by wandering through my dreams

I’m afraid I will close my eyes inside of you

Refrain

* Don’t leave, don’t leave- can’t you stay by my side?
Lies, all lies- I don’t hear anything
I love you, I love you- can’t you show me those words?
I love you, I love you- will you love me again?

VERSE 2

Time already passed like this
I try looking for your traces but they are erased
The last memories of you are locked in the rims of my tears

Just end it, end me- if you’re not going to be next to me

I’m sorry but I’ll leave now- following your footsteps

Following the road with no end- as I wander to find you

I’m afraid I will lose you and be sad

* repeat

Don’t leave, don’t leave- can’t you stay?

Lies, lies, I don’t hear anything

I love you, I love you- can’t you show me?

Can’t you love me, love me, love me?

Don’t leave, don’t leave- can’t you stay?

Lies, lies, I don’t hear anything

I love you, I love you- can’t you show me?

Please come back

* repeat

  

This is the music video that I got from youtube :

P.S. : I DON'T OWN THIS VIDEO!!~ :D

For the mp3 format download, just click here

Thanks for reading, and visiting my blog ^^

Hope you'll like this post and this song~

Sincerely, 

JW