Asian Fanfiction

Hi guyss~~
I've joined the most famous (as I know) fanfiction website..
It is ASIAN FANFICTION
jw2213 is my username there

I'm posting my newest story : SWEETHEMATICS
which has L as the main cast. Well, it does suit him for his math genius type of brain.

So, here's the poster~~ (This poster is mine but L and the girl is not mine--while I wish L is mine :") )

The Background (This picture is not mine)

Crong~ (This character is not mine...)

For the fanfiction you can click here

Thanks :)
JW

A Letter for 'you'..

31/7/12

This is the last day of the month and I feel lost.

I feel that there's an empty space inside my lung that longing for something.

First of all I want to say something. It's not like I'm turning on you right now. I mean it doesn't mean I love you or like you.

Saat Kita Harus Mencoba..

Saat kita harus mencoba untuk melakukan sesuatu yang bertentangan dengan kata hati kita maka akan terjadi perseteruan batin antara otak dan hati kita.
Pilih nurani atau logika dan realita?
Kalau dilihat dari jumlah sih nurani pasti kalah telak dengan dua lawan satu...
Tapi terkadang, atau justru lebih sering kita memilih dan berpihak seperti apa kata nurani kita.
Kadang logika dan realita yang ada di depan mata kita tinggalkan..
Karena hati itu GPS otomatis yang mengetahui arah lebih baik dari otak yang mempunyai berjuta syaraf, karena apa kata hati kita adalah sesuatu yang selalu tidak bertentangan atau tidak bisa ditentang oleh diri kita dan keinginan kita...
Memang lucu, padahal kadang bahkan kita tau jelas kalau apa yang kita mau itu memang mustahil, tapi justru terkadang kita lebih kekeuh memegang kemungkinan sekecil apapun dalam hidup...

Aku adalah seorang perempuan yang hidup sebagai seorang perempuan.
Kata orang perempuan lebih memilih hati.
Dia takkan tau, kalau aku menangis dalam hati saat melihatnya telah berubah...
Dia takkan tau....
Aku kesal melihatnya berubah menjadi sesuatu yang tak aku suka.
Namun aku pun tak berbicara.
Sinting, kata yang tepat untuk mendeskripsikannya.
Bodoh adalah kata yang paling tepat untuk mendiskripsikan aku...

Otakku mengatakan, "Jangan lagi kau menyukainya. Apalagi menaruhnya dalam hatimu...."
Namun saat aku ingin mengeluarkannya hatiku berkelahi dengan otakku.
"Jangan," halangnya. "Kau masih menyimpan sesuatu...."
Dan sekali lagi logikaku kalah.

Dan sekali lagi.
Aku harus mencoba untuk terus hidup di tengah ketidakpastian.
Dan terus harus berani melawan dan terus mencoba untuk berdiri dan memasang tembok di depan.
Agar aku tak terlihat begitu lemah....

Sincerely,
---JW---

The Things that I've done in these busy weeks..

Alright gang. I'm stressed out.

I've stressed out, and I'm stressing out. -_-

OK, how to say that in the good grammar?

Fine, at last as you understand what I mean is that alright..?

No answer, so I take it as 'alright'..

*Sorry gang I think my mind is not normal anymore...*

So I want to start this with a story...

THESE WEEKS I've been working so hard for my school's assignments, school's simulation (preparing for the national exams which my Native Teacher often says 'Ujian Monyet' because we only have to choose A, B, C, or D...), test, reviews (and those reviews are the things which responsible the most for my stressful days...), ect.

But the thing that I enjoyed the most when I was doing preparing for all of that in my house is..

I've been editing some photos when I felt bored those days....

YA-HAAAA!!!
NOW I'm GONNA POST IT!!

Please tell me which one is your FAVORITE!!

Best Regards,
---JW---

MOVED ON!!

Dear 2313,
I think this is the last post that I will write for you, because I've MOVED ON!!!
YEAAAAA~~
Actually I want to thank you, because I've ever felt many things different when I was still 'love or like' you.
You're not that type of the boys that I THINK is the type of a good-boy.
YOU'RE a playboy and I knew it.
I knew it and I still.... RAWRR whatever..

Aku yang Tak Pernah Mengerti...

Cinta itu seakan semu
Bayangmu seakan rancu
Hatiku bergetar ragu
Kakiku berhenti maju

Sebuah hentakkan kaki yang menggetarkan nadiku
Sebuah senyuman polos yang meronakan pipiku
Sebuah suara yang menegangkan bulu kudukku
Apakah itu bukan pelampiasan kekesalanku?

Call Me Stupid..

Maybe I can say that I'm stupid.
I admit that by myself.
Because I don't even know my own feelings.
Stupid.
I can understand another people's feelings more than my own feelings.
That's why I keep swallowing my feel, because I don't even know what is this.
Maybe I'm stupid.
Because I don't know how to understand my own feelings.

sincerely,
a stress out JW

BANNERS~

HI guys, I'm back again after a long long long long time...

Yea, I'm kinda busy with my Art Exhibition...

I mean OUR CLASS' exhibition. 

So, it's finished...

Hmmmm... 

and to open 2012 I will post the banners that I made in 2011.

Thanks to ELIZABETH KRISTINA who told me how to do it...

I think she is a real IT prodigy in designing~

Some of them...Actually most of them are in Indonesian...

I'm sorry if you don't understand...

(I don't even think it will be read by many people, especially from another countries...)

So check it out~

Which one is your favourite?
Can you give me your opinion? :D
THANK YOU~ ^^

Best Regards,
~JW~

Life.... -_-

A fairy tale is often begins with the phrase "Once upon a time" and ends with "And they live happily ever after". But my story is begin when the phrase, "I'm a alive" and end with the phrase, "I'm dead"....

Brain vs. Heart (1)

Kenapa jadi manusia itu susah banget yah? Ada aja getaran tiap kali gue ngeliat hal-hal yang menurut otak gue tuh ga perlu 'disebelin' tapi kenapa hati gue sering berkata lain?
Waktu gue liat cowo yang gue suka foto bareng cewe laen otak gue udah membulatkan kalo gue tuh udah ga suka sama dia. Tapi hati gue berkata lain, gue ampe dibikin ga bisa mikir jernih. Setiap orang yang lewat di Mall TERASKOTA waktu itu (19/12/11) kayak tergambar atau terbayang di otak gue sebagai dia (2313).
Padahal di otak gue udah ga pernah kebayang lagi tuh manusia. Namanya, Suaranya, Wajahnya.... Tapi sekali lagi gue liat foto nya entah kenapa semua balik lagi...
Gue jujur aja malah jadi takut.
Takut kalo gue bahkan ga bisa kontrol pikiran dan perasaan gue sendiri. Gue ga mau dibudakkin sama hati gue ataupun pikiran gue.
Gue ga tau yang mana yang bener, yang mana yang memang harus gue jalanin. Semuanya rancu....
Gue nyantai kalo liat dia foto bareng cewe laen, tapi ada yang ngeganjel...
Nyebelin rasanya.
Seakan gue tuh pengen banget narik jantung gue keluar dan gue pecahin (seandainya dengan car itu gue ga mati)...
Doa? itu udah berkali-kali, moga-moga didengerin...

Sincerely,
---JW---

I know...

I know that you all hate me, I know it..
I know that you all dislike me, I know it...
Even though I'm trying to change, maybe you all only blinded by my past...
Hope you all can see trough the new glasses.
Thanks.

Sincerely,
---JW---  

Bagiku.. (To:2313)

Bagiku kau adalah sebuah nada yang kukunci dan kujaga di dalam sebuah kotak musik..
Saat kupikir aku mulai melupakanmu, aku melupakan tempat aku menyimpan kuncinya..
Namun saat kau kembali muncul bagaikan angin kurasa kunci itu muncul kembali tanpa perlu kucari..
Apa maksud semua ini?

Sincerely,
---JW---

Nothing Last Forever..

Nothing will last forever..

Believe me, nothing last forever in this world.
Nothing, even this world itself..

Love? It may be the most beautiful thing in this world.
But it's also the cruelest thing in this world when it turns dark.
It's too cruel to be known. Ўūþ, it'll not last forever.

Family? It may be the closest bond that ever been made. But when the time has come it'll be nothing. It's too cruel to be left behind by the one who we love..

Best Friends? Yea, I want to believe this will last forever. But same with families, it's just too cruel when you see your friends or best friends left us behind. Left us behind in this world of lies and shadows..

Memory is the only things will be living inside of our beloved people that we leave or left in this world. But it's also will gone together with the world itself.

Yea, the world is just a test.
It's important for the immortal live.
But, don't too happy with all the things you have here.
Now.
You'll cry in the finish line.

This world is not everlasting.
This world is just a time-bomb.
This world is also waiting together with us.
Time is too fast.
We're too greedy.
We're all suffering, for many kind of things.

The everlasting happiness will come if you done a good job in this sucks world.
I know this world is sucks, but there are also many happiness here.

But beware, those happiness could be sweeter than honey at the first. But in the end it'll turns bitter.
Some of it also make you addictive to it, just like drugs.

Yea, just be careful and pray.
This world is too messy.
This world is too failed.
Yes, the world is too dirty and bad.
But, just pray.
The everlasting happiness is waiting for you..

This world is too cruel to be known.
It's too tricky to be live in.
I may hate this world, but it's myself who choose the path of my life.
You're also the one who will choose your path.
Walk on the shiny line, or ruined inside the hopeless dreams..
Yea, just choose..
Yea, maybe this world is cruel. But it's our world..

Yea, maybe this world is not that bad.

Best Regards,
---JW---
11.45 WIB, West Jakarta, Indonesia..

High School...?

Hhmmm...
High school...
I'm a ninth grader now, and high school is coming to me...
I will be a high school student next year (I hope I'll pass the exams~)...
I.... want to back to Penabur so I can meet my old friends (from the primary school)..
But, I have to choose between my old friends and my friends now~
If I stay in IPEKA, I won't be meeting my old friends..
But if I go to Penabur, I will say good-bye to my friends in IPEKA. Yea, even some of them will be moving to Penabur to, SMAK 1 and SMAK 4.
I have made my decision. I'll stay in IPEKA Puri, not because of 2313, but because many things that I have been thinking about. A lot of it....
Actually I don't think I'm ready to be a high schooler, but what should I do when the time have come?
I must be ready...
I must prepare myself from now on...

Sincerely,
---JW---

Changing...? Yea~

I am an emotional girl. I admit that myself, yea thanks to my dear eonnie, Elizabeth Kristina that let me know about it...
I want to change, it's not that good to be hate.
Ўūþ.
And the ways that I'm going to do to change are :
1. Stop raising my voice
2. I better use the funny words
3. Pray
​​ƗƗɑƗƗɑ​​ƗƗɑƗƗɑ​​ƗƗɑƗƗɑ.. Hope these will work..
Sincerely,
---JW---

I'm swallowing my own sadness again and again...

I'm swallowing my own sadness again and again...
I'm swallowing my own tears again and again...
I'm swallowing my own pains again and again..
My best friends, you all have the right to make me cry like a baby...
Yes, you all have the right more than the boys that I love...
You're more than all of those things...
More than those things about love..

2313..?

Dear : CODENAME 2313...
Humm... Hhhh...
I want that to be "The last sigh" that I've ever made because of you, 2313...
I think I'm starting to forget about you little by little...
Your face, your voice (at last I can forget about it)...
Yes step by step, one by one...
Actually I really want to forget about you from a long long ago..
But I don't know how now it seems like it just something to forget easily...
But actually I've tried very hard like a crazy, even I never cried because of you before..
Now, everytime I see you I feel nothing.
I feel like you only like everybody else.. You're just like my other usual friends..
I suppose to be happy right? Yea, I suppose to be happy because I'm able to forget you...
But the weird thing here is : I'm able to forget you, I don't have any feelings toward you anymore, but I don't want to forget and get rid from you...-_-
Waaaaaaa!!!!۳(¬‿¬)۳
I think I'm going crazy.. Slight by a slight.. -_-
I never even can understand and know my own feelings. Stupid is the right word for me.. I think..

Diluarnya...

Ini cuma satu orang...
Mungkin gw emang terlalu sensitif bagi lu...
Yah, memang gw sensitif sih...
Diluarnya sih akhirnya masalahnya udah selesai..
Gw kira udah bener-bener ga bakal kayak 'gitu' lagi,
tapi ternyata yang gue dapet malah yang lebih pahit dari yang itu...
Dari senang, jadi hambar, suram, dan gw kira bakal hangat lagi...
Ternyata yang gw dapet malah yang lebih sakit...
Lu mungkin sadar mungkin ga..
Mungkin sengaja mungkin ga..
Mungkin lu ga seneng gw umbar semua kesedihan gw seakan gw nuduh lu...
Tapi memang yang ngerti, yang rasain, yang nangis cuma gw...
Care lu yang tadinya masih ada menguap semua..
Senyum lu yang tadinya masih ada sekarang ilang semua..
Yah, lu mah bahagia dan ga merasa apapun..
Lu itu emang kayak gitu..
Tapi gw mesti gimana supaya lu bisa kayak dulu lagi? Jadi gw harus sendirian lagi?

Sincerely, your friend
---JW---

Esai Pendekku.. Trembles of Friendship (2)

Teman, ini yang kulihat...
Teman, ini yang kurasakan..
Teman, ini yang kulakukan..
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Yah, mungkin diantara kalian berdua aku hanya penghalang semu...
Yah, kalian bersua dan sekarang aku sendiri yang ditinggalkan di belakang panggung..
Hahhh...
Aku terlupakan.. Aku terhilang..
Aku tidak mau menghancurkan harmoni yang terjalin diantara kalian..
Sudah terajut terlalu rapat..
Jadi aku memandang langit-langit ruangan..
Jadi aku sibuk dengan pena dan kertasku..
Jadi aku mengetuk meja untuk menghilangkan sepi..
Yah, aku berteman dengan bunyi itu..
Biarkan kalian berceloteh dan aku mengetuk..
Biarkan kalian tersenyum dan aku menunduk..
Biarkan kalian tertawa dan aku memalingkan tatapanku..
Biarkan kalian bahagia dan aku menutup telingaku rapat-rapat..
Biarkan kalian terang dan aku berkubang dalam suram..
​​ƗƗɑƗƗɑ​​ƗƗɑƗƗɑ​​ƗƗɑƗƗɑ.. Tawaku hambar dalam sunyi..
Aku ditinggal...
Tidak,
Aku tertinggal..
Aku ingin kembali. Aku ingin bersama. Tapi apakah kalian mengizinkan?
Tawa yang kau arahkan kepadaku tak seperti kau rela..
Aku pun masih bertanya-tanya...
Aku ingin kembali, tapi aku tak berani...
Aku ingin kembali, tapi aku tak mengerti...
Aku ingin kembali, tapi aku tak mengetahui, apakah kalian menerimaku sekarang ini?
Aku masih bertanya-tanya di dalam hatiku sendiri...

Sincerely, your friend..
---JW---

The Trembles of Friendship..

Galau itu bukan cuma gara-gara ♥..
Tapi di pertemanan itu bukan hal yang ga mungkin..
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9/11/11 13.44 WIB

Tatapan dingin itu padaku...
Nada datar itu padaku...
Tatapan hangat itu padanya...
Nada manis itu padanya...
Apa salahku?
Benakku bertanya-tanya..

Ya, lupakan aku..
Ya, lupakan aku..
Ya, lupakan aku..
Ya, lupakan aku..
Ya, lupakan aku..

Tapi kumohon jangan selamanya...

Sincerely,
Your friend..
---JW---